Teach me how to become a BiTCH!!!

Take a look at the mirror.

I notice that i always have this hard shell outside of me.

I'm just like a crab...

It feels like im so hard outside, But what's within me,

Im so empty.

I always hide my feeling.

When i'm feeling so pissed off about one person, i will jz keep quiet,

n pretend that nothing happen,

But for myself, I'm still very upset and damn angry in me,

N shout out loud with frens when i get the chance to voice out.

But here's the fact, i always pretend nothing happen, but ..It matters

Maybe i was grown up in an very harmonic environment,

I mean in church~in class~ or watsover..

As i can remember,

I seldom argued with frens, face to face, shout at each other, raise my voice, etc..

Apparently i only know how to argue with my sister inside the house.

I remember once when i was still young,

When my Big sister did something so bad that i discovered it,

I ended up crying on my bed, n keep scolding to my pillow,

While my 2nd sister came and comfort me.

We ended up, crying together. Haha.

I never have the guts to face to face, and start an argument.

This is jz not part of me.

I hate drama so badly.

How i wish i got the guts, and scold ppl so loud in front of their face.

I never tried that.

But i know everytime when i feel so upset and jz raise up my voice a little bit,

I will become so nervous, n damn empty and blank inside my head.

I jz cant raise up my voice to scold ppl or participate in argument.

I will have tears rolling in my eyes cause i m such a emotional person.

I'm cold blooded, but emotional, is another soft side of me. ^^

Sometime i'm so envy n jealous when i saw someone that he/she is so daring to make an argument.

There's nothing wrong when u argue, its a knowledge n skill to.

How i wish i know how to argue, n become a bitch maybe?

Even when i buy things, i will feel so shy to ask so many questions,

and so seldom to ask for cheaper price, cause ... i don like to do so.

Ended up? Bought a stupid lauzy black pony? Haha.

Please, teach me how to become a bitch.

Sometime i can continue to become a crab,

But i wanted to be a BITCH as well.

I hate drama.. But i think sometime we need to be dramatic ..

GuYoNG is a bitch ^^